bewitch in progress...

ECCLESIASTES 3:1-8

2009-12-05T18:38:00.007+08:00

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.

A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak
A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

As for now , it's a time of ice cream for me!

PRAY WITH ME

2009-11-23T10:52:00.003+08:00

Some things are just beyond our control.
Some things just happened for a reason.
Some things just doesn't need explanantion.
Some things are just better left alone.
And some things are just in need of consistent prayers.

I know my life is in God's hand so I'm praying my friends' life will be in God's hand as well.

Thank you Lord, for getting me out of my storm, I pray now you will use me to get my friends out of their storm.

When I'm faithless, God is always faithful.

SO UNHAPPY, BUT SAFE AS COULD BE.

2009-11-17T11:38:00.003+08:00

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy
Just wanna be happy...

I really miss my bear at this moment.
I wonder if he's been recycled?

GIRL IN THE MIRROR

2009-11-08T12:14:00.004+08:00

There's a girl in the mirror, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her, sometimes I really wish I did. There's a story in her eyes, lullabies and goodbyes. When she's looking back at me, I can tell her heart is broken easily.

If I could, I would tell her not to be afraid. The pain that she's feeling, the sense of loneliness will fade. So dry your tears and rest assured, Love will find you like before. When she's looking back at me, I know nothing really works that easily.

Cause the girl in my mirror is crying out tonight. And there's nothing I can tell her to make her feel alright. Oh the girl in my mirror is crying cause of you. And I wish there was something, something I could do.

I can't believe it's what I see that the girl in the mirror,
The girl in the mirror is................. Me.

MY FRIEND

2009-10-25T12:23:00.002+08:00

I only see you in my dream

Appear with a glimpse of light

And there you are, my magical unicorn

My only friend, in a magical world.

I LOVE WISDOM FROM GOD

2009-10-17T18:10:00.005+08:00

"You have too many things you want to do. Never ending errands to run. Even unrealistic dreams like becoming a superhero and saving the world someday. Because you are too obsessed with the "To-do-List" in your head, it often takes up all your time as you spent the entire day making lists after lists on what you should do but you never get the chance to do because you never get to finish your lists. Here's the thing, you must know there's never a time when you are left with nothing you want to do UNTIL you decide to quilt your life.

Same goes with placing the unimportant stuff at the top of your "To-do-List." When you are done, you feel unsatisfied and you ask yourself why. Even to the extend of making yourself believe you're useless, therefore, whatever you do, you feel unfulfilled or incompetent. But you're missing out on the key point. It is NOT because you are dumb or weaker compared to the other humans, it is mainly you are not prioritising whatever that is important in a long run at the top of your list.

NEVER place something that doesn't benefit you in the long run at the top of your list. Remember, this is life. And until God decides to quilt on you, you know you are in this for a long run. Enough about what you want to do or what you think you should do BUT ask yourself what benefits you in a long run? Then, from there sort your life up, pick up the pieces bit by bit. Put it together and get ready for your own jigsaw puzzle.

Because, at the end, you know you have built a Masterpiece that will last you through life."

MAMA SAID

2009-10-01T20:14:00.003+08:00

boys are cheats and liars,
they're such a big disgrace,
they will tell you anything to get to second...
baseball, baseball,
they think they're going to score,
and if you let them go all the way then you are a...
horticulturists study flowers, geoligists study rocks,
all he wants to do is find a place to put his...
cockroaches, beetles, butterflies, and bugs,
nothing makes him happier than a giant pair of...
jugglers and acrobats, a dancing bear named chuck,
all he really wants from you is...
forget it no such luck!!

SERIOUSLY

2009-07-23T21:46:00.004+08:00

I don't feel satisfied, fulfilled or completed. I'm turning 21 and it take me almost 21 years to realise that. I feel a desperate need for change. And somehow, I know its coming.

YOU WERE JUST CALLED TO DECORATE YOUR DAD'S OFFICE FOR ONE DAY AND NOW YOU CALLED YOURSELF A DECORATOR AFTER THAT?
OK... THAN I WENT TO THE ZOO LAST WEEK AND SO NOW I'M A KOLA BEAR!

I WANT A COOKIE!

2009-07-12T13:00:00.002+08:00

Even with my fist held high, it never would have worked out right. We were never meant for do or die. I want you to know it doesn't matter where we take this road and I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better. But I want you to move on because you have another. I know talking makes it harder for you so I'm keeping my distance and I'm sorry if I acted awkward.

Anyway!

Just thinking of tomorrow is seriously a killer to my brain cells. Did I mention I really hate office located at 45th storey high! My ear hurts so badly of the sudden change in pressure. But on a lighter note! LOL I feel pretty again HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS! Must be some miracle cream my aunt bought! WOO! Now, I'm all charge up and ready for work tomorrow! HAHAS. That will only last for an hour and after that I will be fighting a battle to stay awake again.

My stomach has been hurting. So one of my friend decided to draw how I looked like! Not bad, I look damn cute HAHAHAHAHAS Thank you Wq! But my drawing is 10times better than yours ok!

Hopefully, I feel better tomorrow!

Stay strong Janelle, you have always been strong!

FINALLY I KNOW....

2009-07-10T18:44:00.003+08:00

Working barely reaching 1month, I've seemed and learnt more than I could ever imagine. Thinking how I thought I knew what the world was like, in return, realising what I knew was just within what I can reach. The truth is no one knows what exactly is in stored ahead of them until you take a step of faith and step into it. Risking everything just to satisfy your own curiosity, I said its a worthwhile experience.

I didn't just learn how office function nor how people with different character reacts to different situation. I learn about myself. What kind of person exactly I am, what I desire in life, what I need and so forth... It shocked me to think that I know myself until when I started work, I realised what I thought I need is not exactly really the case.

What used to make me cry or disappoint me, doesn't have the power over my emotions anymore. I learnt about my own fighting spirit, the capacity I have to endure and pull through, I understand now why God placed so much challenges in my life. Because He is able and I'm strong and He knows it :)

I learnt of the people who care as well. Honestly, I'm blessed. The amount of friends I never knew I have, I'm amazed at how sociable I am for this whole 21years of my life! HAHAS! I feel absolutely guilty that its been a long while since I last met up with all of them. But yet they have been really encouraging after knowing about my new job. Friends even offered to to come to my work place just to have lunch with me to catch up. And I'm even surprised that they know my birthday is coming as well! LOL! I must start remembering people's birthday man! I need to repent!

But what touches me the most is that each of them remember me as someone who touches their life during their down moments. I guess that is what I'm placed on earth to do. Hee.. to keep blessing and touching the lives of the people I meet. So whoever life I haven't touch, please tell me ah! Let me touch your life and change it around for you! HAHAHHAHAHAHAS!

A FISH YOU WISH YOU HAD

2009-07-07T20:45:00.005+08:00

"There's only two types of guys out there

Ones that can hang with me and ones that are scared

So baby, I hope that you came prepared

I run a tight ship so beware"

~Britney

TAI TAI LIFE GONE

2009-07-06T21:34:00.004+08:00

Been reaching home about close to 9pm everyday. Crazy job, screwing up my entire body. Work load is crazy, my back hurts and I feel fat! FAT FAT FAT! I seem to gain a lot from this job. Not knowledge, just fats. How nice. Everyday just sit in the office and type and eat and type and eat and eat and eat and eat. I seriously need a life man.

Like what my colleague says, "We are working for an underpaid company."

Always wanted to work at raffles district area, my dream came to pass but I'm still in shocked.

Be careful what you wish for next time, Janelle.

Jesus, bless me.

Amen.

WALKING IN FAITH

2009-06-30T21:16:00.002+08:00

Its harder than I thought it would be.
God help me, please.

SONG OF MY HEART

2009-06-25T18:23:00.003+08:00

Take me to the place Lord
Where there’s nothing else but me and You
Longing for Your presence
I know that You are calling me to You

Here I stand
And long for Your embrace
Nothing else
Could ever take Your place

Come Holy Spirit
Fall in this place
I need more and more of You
Fill me again with the power of Your Spirit
Lord I’m crying out for
More and more of You

A HUSBAND LIKE GOD

2009-06-18T15:58:00.005+08:00

To me, the sexiest man on earth is a Man of God.

A man who is upright, humbled, God-dependent and carrying the glory of God with him everywhere he go. Everytime when he walks into the room, he walks with the glory of God. Not knowingly, that he filled the loft with his charisma and charm.

A man just like Jesus. How can anyone disagree with that?

PRINCE OF PEACE

2009-06-16T15:40:00.007+08:00

Show me how to live

Teach me how to pray.

WISDOM VS JOB

2009-06-08T13:13:00.006+08:00

My wisdom tooth hurts like crap. But plucking it out kills me even more! GRR. I'm totally traumatised by my last visit to the dental clinic. It felt as if my entire face was being pulled out!My face was suffused with pain throughout the whole procedure that the dentist had to keep stopping and asked me to breathe.

Right now, its healing period. No solid food, no junk food except liquid and plenty and plenty of liquid.

*No wisdom tooth = YOU SIMPLY HAVE NO WISDOM

Feeling sore and shit after the whole surgery still doesn't exempt me from searching for a job. What is a search if not a dual exercise in hope and helplessness? It is hope that makes the search possible, helplessness that makes it simultaneously absurd! Oh damnit, how I wish someone will just rescue me from this paralytic weight of jobless' burden on my shoulders!

Please?

CHANGES NEED TO BE DONE

2009-06-06T13:03:00.005+08:00

I need to do something with my rage blackouts, seriously.

Poor Nigel, I'm sorry babe. You are still very much loved by me, okay? (:

TANNING WITH MR TANG, MY LOVE:D

2009-05-20T21:27:00.003+08:00

Went tanning with my brother today. It was indeed a gloriously sunny day! The sun was scorching hot! I am totally sunburn due to the excessive exposure of ultraviolet rays and now my skin hurt like crap! @#$%^&*

I kept complaining how dreadful the heat was and my brother thought it was funny. According to him, that is the whole point of sun tanning. No one sun tan feeling cold. (I feel inspired! Maybe I should start inventing some kind of machine that would allow people to be tan without feeling the heat at the same time! Muahahas I'm such a genius! )

Overall, kor kor must have pretty much enjoyed his sun tanning time with me! Since three quarter of his time, he tried to extricate himself from my incessant chatter. HAHAS

Now, who wants to go sun tanning with me the next time???!!!
WHO WHO WHO!?!?!??!

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

2009-05-19T20:57:00.013+08:00

Anger is hollowing out my insides. Can you see that profound displeasure on my face?

On the other hand, a tug of expectation and uneasiness settled deep down into the pit of my stomach. And they said, only time would blunt that sharp edge of sorrow. But I think I need to feel a sudden surge of hope to regain back my strength, confidence and self-worth.

I need time, love, space.
I need.... ME.

BURN BABY BURN

2009-05-18T14:53:00.003+08:00

I've been very good at watching my weight. I watch it go up and down and up and down like a roller coaster ride! It's not that I am against exercise but it's just that when I look at my body, I feel it's already been punished enough!

Until I came across Mr Blanks! And boy oh boy, he forced me to give up my ever not so fruitful jogging for cardio!

Billy Blanks' Tae Bo cardio is kick ass work out! Been there, done that and still doing it! He pushes like no other fitness instructors! You can literally feel the blood rushing through your veins, incredibly satisfying!

CAN I LIVE WITHOUT SHOULDERS?

2009-05-15T19:29:00.002+08:00

HI JOSHUA!!! HAHAS!

You are very observant! Not bad!

And I love my cousin! I love her. I cross my fingers and hope I get a job soon! WOO!

Dear God, if this is what You want me to do then let me get the job. If not open other doors for me! Pretty please!

And my shoulders are still hurting terribly.

I need a massage badly.

UNBELIEVABLE

2009-05-14T19:50:00.000+08:00

Oh gawd, I'm jobless and yet I'm still doing this

Shit.